Louise ♥
working archive of my life through the events/feelings/things of each day
15 April
Who is going to tell me this doesn’t mean anything.
14 April 26
I feel hawai’i in this vermont today
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drawing critique today. Lisa gave the most heartbreaking retelling of the death of Nurul Amin Shah Alam of Myanmar in Buffalo NY.
Being southeast asian in the United States of Whatever: His death feels like the administrative failure of the prison and legal systems. Do we think the white woman who called the police about him represents some sort of Amy Cooper-sitation or xenophobic?
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pm: ST came over through a rain storm for dumpling dinner, brownies, mulholland drive. Our lesbia-inclined ways made a fun watch together. I really enjoyed this movie. Either that or lost highway has got to be one of my top 4 favorites.
I want to get drunk but I’ll probably just go to bed soon after a day of getting in trouble. Dreaming about starting a table tennis club with V
13 April 26
fly by The Chicks making me super sentimental for spring and mud season falling in love with vermont and concurrently falling in love with ECW.
Dry vermont winds pull my long hair back like a friend tending to me me over the toilet bowl.
12 April 26
Junktiques, Burlington
11 April 26
Yesterday fun warm friday at the vermont artbook fair complimentary free wine and light beer. Friend/coworker cigarette with social butterfly professor Wood right before it revved up. The storm began, and I had a secret beer in my back seat while picking up VTH from the theatre for resting, nts, matcha, seasoned rice, small lampshop DJ takahiko matsui outing. It’s dead here. I want dear RAH to tell us what to do.
I met a girl who had the most beautiful eyelashes
I calculated how many Fridays are left in my life but surprisingly its low and concrete number doesn’t necessarily make me paniced or make me feel like I have to take my life by the horns or anything. If anything it just feels real to me. The same does not go for VTH. They were totally freaked out.
8 April 26
lovely meeting with stephen. work week means i basically have no thoughts so this was a good exception
6 April 26
5 April 26
cried myself to sleep last night. made polish pickle soup for family easter. i felt like a failure compared to my brothers and cousins. emma made me feel better. i got cute spring clothing at the listen thrift store. i downloaded tinder. it is bad as expected.
4 April 26
emma said she’s downloading tinder. i was okay with it. i went to the skate park with virgil after i made us easter dinner for our basket exchange. tamarind soup base + green curry + bamboo shoots + somen noodles + blanched bok choy + enoki mushrooms + soft boiled eggs + pickled radishes, mustard greens, scallions + kimchi + spices. she got me a ring. I made her a bunch of little crafts. we’re both ready to leave. we’ve almost been taking photos of each other for a year. (april 3 top / september 6 bottom)
1 April 26
I hate feeling too slutty and still feeling to masculine at my work fancy dinner. Everything I say has no meaning and people are confused. Everyone feels the need to laugh after every time I speak. I’m cussing out the drivers who are being dicks to me. I think of Francesca Woodman.
THE END....